Lazing in school.

TWT presentation got postponed till next week. Huge sigh of relief.
My throat’s not getting better. Annoying much.
Vlogging in process. Vlogcrush.com.
Tata.

Cough.

Some matters are better left unsolved. When someone is too stubborn to see someone else’s point of view, then what is the point?

Anyway, I’m in class right now. I was late for class again. I should not make it a habit. Bad.

Cookies for Mr Brightside soon.

Coughing really badly now. Cough till I bleed. Nose bleeds as well. I think I am dying.

Box it up.

 

  Hehe, I’ve got an IKEA corner. IKEA boxes, IKEA holding tower and IKEA bin.I’ve got like 4 more boxes around my room but I didn’t think of taking photos. Mama’s teddy is wearing undies :D

Today’s fashion gig was called off cos we decided that 4 models can’t pull it off. Will do it tomorrow when we’ve got more models up :) Sorry Sylvia.

That’s my boy.

 

Today was rather unexpected. Headed out in the afternoon to meet Ken for, well supposedly donuts, but we decided to head to CJ’s instead. Wandered around and went back to Novena where my Mr Brightside came over to join us. While Ken was busy getting ready to book in, B and I lazed in the living room like penguins. Haha, don’t ask me why penguins, it just came to my head like that. After sending Ken to Pasir Ris we decided to go to…..

Hohohohohohohohoho. Love you lovely, even though you didn’t have the intention of coming out today :)

I should kill myself.

Instead of doing any of my reports, I decided to spend my time modifying my oversized SP Shirt into an oversized SP Tank  top.

 

I am so going to wear this to school on Monday :D

YES MONDAY PLEASE.

Yay thanks to Trixia, I have another modelling gig. Sponsored by Les-affaires, a few of us are to do a flash mob catwalk in fc5 and fc6. Shall not tell you guys the ShowTime but its definitely in the afternoon :)

My throat still hurts :(

I’m officially sick and I have an MC to prove it. ( Not like that’s gonna work since people can just pay for an mc)

Yes, I have some throat infection thingy? Hurts like shit  so I try not to swallow my saliva so much cos ‘ it is really very tedious, Stayed at home and slept the afternoon away. Trying to finish up on my comeres journal so I can start on my essay.

I know this entry lacks substance but I really ain’t got the mood.

Birthday with DPA clique

 

Great seeing them all again. Thanks for my wonderful gifts guys :)

Headed to Melly’s, oh well. haha no nice photos this time.

All I want.

Cos’ maybe all I want is just for you to be there on Saturday when all my friends are there. So maybe you can see who is my crowd and what we do and how they can take care of me even when I’m acting like the biggest idiot on earth.

I want you to come out and be there, money shouldn't matter to you because I’m covering for you. And that’s just so you can be there no matter what.

How about cancelling the whole thing since you ain’t gonna be there?

 

Hehe, mai veh cute hand made doll for my Mr. Brightside.  

Fight Team selections today.

Zai ttm.

Birthday Celebration with SPMT

Celebrated my birthday with Mr Brightside and SPMT! Awesome surprise I got there :)

Finally 17.

 

 

My Mr Brightside knitted this pouch all by himself and I am damn happy cos it’s handmade and special :) Hehe teddy bear is by Mama.His Mama.

:D

Early Celebrations 2

Met these lovely ladies for lunch. I was only expecting to see Jacinta but then the other 4 were at the table and I just stood there stunned.

 

Thank you lovelies :)

Escapade @ SP.

Apologies for the lack of updates and lack of enthusiasm. Not like it matters since not many read my blog no more. But anyway, life’s been 50-50. I mean modelling rehearsals for Escapade was fun even though the new batch of models took some time to warm up to.

Few hours ago,we got a glimpse of Electrico and Great Spy.Got carried on the shoulders of Dave to hype the crowd up. Finally we were on stage, walking the runway and receiving awesome cheers from the awesome crowd.

Then here comes the most ridiculous part. We were told we had to leave school at 2am and we will take the school bus back and the crew will follow us up right to our doorstep. The models threw a fit. Because we planned to hang out and chill cos’ we’re too busy to meet up regularly. We had some disagreements and only got forced up the bus at 3, which is practically one hour past our indemnity form timing.

On the bus, the noise was terrible. Haha, as usual. What’s new? But we did shut the fuck up once we grew tired. And I finally reached home at 5am.Or around there at least.

Thank goodness we’ll be having a gathering for my birthday next Saturday. Which reminds me, I have to come up with the guest list and hand it over to my ‘Organisers’ Trix and Manv. Indemnity forms, don’t forget guys!

The past few days has been hectic till I’ve fallen ill, i think. Yesterday was our forum theatre performance in collaboration with Health Promotion Board. Success. Happiness beamed through everyone. Great job to my on-stage ex-boyfriend Leon for doing a fantastic job.

Escapade is in 3 days time and we have yet to finalise our blockings. I guess we all need much more time to be spent on planning instead of watching bad quality fashion show videos. Plus I am really disturbed that SP current students can’t attend the party. Pfft.

Everything is back on track. Shall go figure out my drama assignments.

Leaving my bed in 45 minutes to head for school. Its times like theses where I feel damn bored cos’ I get up so early to prepare and then realise I have an hour more to waste.

I wonder how today’s gonna be like.

I’m glad things are getting better.

I take that back, the last thing i want to forget about is my boyfriend. Please don’t do this to me.

Finally a proper blog post?

It has been so long since I blogged about my day in detail so I’m going to do that tonight.

Basically today, I was working from 7am to 7pm. That means I was up and out of bed by 5.30am and reached home and got into my bed by 8.30pm. I wouldn’t be complaining so much either if I didn’t have cramps.

Back to the topic, we headed to Padang to set up for SCCrugbygames or something along those lines. The morning was boring and slow but after getting to know the other workers from Standard Chartered better, the mood got lifted up a bit. Started stealing food which is practically the norm for every event or so.

Started betting on every team to waste our time away, counting down hours. I think  I won a dollar and a quarter.

Then here comes dinner time, the best part. Stupid Caucasians  are simply so cheapskate over there! They took food from our booths when they were not supposed to and ignored me when i tried to stop. And if they needed food to digest their alcohol, why drink so much in the first place?

Sat at the back of the truck which was open air-ed. My troubles flew away with the wind.

But it came crashing down once everything stopped. I don’t know why but I feel like I have some heavy burden on me. I don’t even know what it is. And it is very very frustrating. It’s like as though I have an invisible bag that I’m lugging around everywhere.

I think I’m losing my direction already.

Unorganized blog post.Thanks.

Yay congrats to the modz from the clique who got in the Gap fashion show. And that includes me as well :) But I just don’t get it why Xueying is not in it with us =/ wahlaueh. pfft.

Might be hosting with Maddy after the event? I have no idea.

I just received, like literally (my mom just came back up to pass to me), the SECDC Youth Leader Bronze Award with a  pretty badge and certificate. Haha, that has been like 3 months ago please.

Korean Pop is getting to me so damn badly now btw.

Last night, Dad was talking to me on msn from china. He is so damn funny.

I love my Brightside.

It’s raining monkeys and dinosaurs. Fuck.

Check out baby out yo.

Btw, If everything I’ve heard about you is true, I will really hate your guts.

 

Teehee, I am so awesome. Mr Brightside could hear the song through the phone. Gotta catch em’ all!

 

Happy Birthday Jacinta N. Happy Birthday Eric. You two are awesome.

Spent time with Mr Brightside

My leg hurts. Ouch.

Early Celebrations.

Had my early birthday dinner at Shima@ Goodwood park hotel. Awesome cake :)

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEEEEN

There are more photos that have yet to be uploaded cos Sandra Khoo Wei Ming takes forever I swear.

 

Halloween eve party last night was awesome to the max. Met up with old friends from KC, like Nat, Sandra, Gen, and people from Harry’s Joel, Melly, Eric. Made new friends from TP which I totally think is awesome.

Knee hurts. bye.

I can sit here and cry for hours.

The feeling of losing the one you love dearly feels like a thousand broken pieces of glass slowly piercing your heart. Every move you make will hurt and every time you try to be strong, you’ll fall.

Cos’ you just seem so far away, so distant. I take one step, you take two, three. I want you to walk back.

Great, I even got my own birthday wrong.

I can feel it, its coming back again. And no, its not anything close to good.

 

I don’t know anymore.

I need more security than this.

I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight...

If I were to run away, to somewhere far..

Sometimes, walking out just seems so much more appealing
than just staying on.
Sometimes, giving up seems to just be a better option
compared to what we feel and continue to feel.

Those who chose to be free, realised that they missed being tied down.
Whereas those who are linked, discover they are missing out on nothing
but the sense of freedom they once held on so dearly
once.

There's just so many things going on up there which
makes it just so difficult to comprehend , to figure out.
Is it just my imagination or is it something that's real but unclear?

So do I face it myself, solve it up?
Or do I just walk out, pretend that nothing has happened and leave everything behind.

I think, I'm feeling rather numb right now. Really.

I hate Stats.

Cos’ it’s damn boring. Just look at my face.

BAI BAI!

Another eggciting Monday..

Oh please please sense the sarcasm.

Got told in the morning about cancellation of my one and only class for today. Headed down to Dover anyway to pass Jacinta the papers and also to have lunch and buy my Statistics textbook. Fml. I don’t even wanna start reading it.

Met Lufi after 3937927 years. Got lost at T1A and approached this bunch of rowdy testosterone-filled dudes for help. Sheesh. It’s like they never seen a lady before.

Called Dad to check on my phone and all he was harping about is the two bottles of alcohol in my room and where they originated from (rolls eyes). Tell me about it.

I need to sleep.

The feeling of being left alone, sucks.

It’s not like I’m not already used to it cos’ of the previous flings. It’s just that, who likes to be left alone anyway?

It’s okay, I can go entertain myself.

Because

I’m worried. It’s because I’m worried, that I won’t see you around in school anymore.

I know we will miss you a hell lot. And I’ll try my best to figure a way out.

Somehow.